Oct 27

i cant remember the last time i was this tired :) it all started on Sabbath evening. we had a wonderful worship to close the Sabbath. it was a video called "how great is our God." it was about how large the stars are and yet how God cares so deeply for each of us individually. very powerful. but right after that is when the fun began ;) we were all preparing for international supper. so fist we divided up all the fun to the respective booths. that took almost an hour to get it all done. then every one was cooking and i was organizing till really late. i didn't get to bed until after 12. then i was up at 7:30 for breakfast. didn't even get a shower! i had about an hour before the program stared to get a little rest, but it wasn't much. but by the time the program started it was all worth it. every thing went very smoothly. the guests filed in, got their food in an orderly fashion, and ate in the assembly room. it was a lot nicer then last year. i am super glad it all went so well. and at the end the students really got in there and cleaned up fast and we all got to bed at a decent hour. then today i had to teach our dorm cleaner how to clean. (that is an on going proses.) and then i had class this after noon, after which i help Mrs. Roque clean the student life storage closet. so i have had a full weekend :) tomorrow i am so posed to have off but i have at least two meetings and who knows what else. so o well. at least i can sleep in a little.
a real burden that i have felt the last few days is how to make my Christianity super real. because if i truly believe that God is so posed to be the center of my life, then that means that i need to be spending a whole lot more time with Him then i have been (among other things i should change). so how much of my day needs to be focus wholly to Christ? i am not sure exactly what the ideal is. i mean, i still have a life to live. and with my schedule i would like a little down time. plus i have some fun hobbies i very much enjoy doing. but i have come to the realization that even though i my not see exactly where i need to be, i know i am not there yet. so i am going to be giving more and more of my time to Him. where ever i can find the time, or where i need to make it. i just want a tight relationship with Jesus. i know He has been working in my life in amazing ways. this whole weekend, even though i was stressed and tired, the Lord helped me keep my cool even during the trying times (and there were a few). Phl. 3:14 "I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." thats all i can do, so thats what i am giong to do :)